We just had to have our chimney rebuilt. We’re putting an addition on our house so my Mom can come live with us; which means work people, big trucks, lots of noise and some chaos energy. The Church of Nature is moving ahead with obtaining its 501(c)3 status and we have a HUGE project we are putting in place that takes a lot of planning, researching and raising of funds. It’s one of the biggest undertakings I’ve been involved in. Plus there is everything going on with my own work; readings for clients, looking at two big projects, speaking engagements, writing book proposals, not to mention writing the books themselves; as well as being a conscious Mom and striving to best support my son as he navigates growing up.
With all of this churning, I hit a pocket of ‘blah’ toward the end of the week.
My pockets of ‘blah’ come with questioning and frustration. Thoughts run through my head like ‘What am I doing? Why am I doing it? Should I be doing it?’
I know well enough by now that as soon those thoughts arrive, that I’ve veered off track. I’m not in alignment with my own Spirit. A while back I wrote about the way in which Nature Lives as Spirit. It is always in alignment, always living true and pure to its reason for being and because of that, Nature flows. But, as humans, our minds and our egos can so easily take us off course. Our minds start to direct our action, always happy to have a project to plan and think out. Our egos love to find the importance of what we are doing and encourage us to be bigger, be more.
When this pocket of ‘blah’ settled upon me, I didn’t catch it at first. I spent a day feeling disheartened and questioning what I’ve been guided to create through The Church of Nature. Friday had me rushing here and there with school drop off, meetings, clients and a need to shift my schedule thanks to a two hour delay on Amtrak and I did not accept Nature’s hand when it called to me. I did accept it yesterday though.
I returned from the gym at 9:30am and instead of going right inside to jump into everything that needed to get done; I took a walk through our property. As I walked, a neighborhood cat, that we call ‘Oscar’, appeared out of what seemed like nowhere. He does this all of the time. We won’t see him for days and then one day, he’ll just emerge from a bush or from behind a tree. Oscar is a big Orange Tabby, with piercing green eyes. He’s been around since we moved her almost six year ago. Yesterday he appeared and joined me on my walk and talked to me in low quiet meows as we walked. I came to the beautiful rock that I often sit on. It’s a great place to reflect and meditate. When I sat down, Oscar jumped up and began nudging me and wrapping around me, purring loudly and then he eventually sat down, right against my side and stayed with me while I was there.
I took a breath in and looked around me. The trees have a few leaves on them still. The leaves on the ground with their shades of yellow, green, red and brown looked like confetti. I started thinking of the trees celebrating Autumn by throwing their confetti leaves. A Junco bird came chirping, sitting on a low branch just above my head, asking ‘what’s up?’ He invited a few friends and they all sat and shared their joyful chatter. I can easily see the house from this rock and I watched the sparrows flying in and out of the Wisteria that wraps itself around our sidewalk trellis. They love to sit in it. Watching the sparrows for so many seasons, I see their families. There are groups that live together and work together. They support each other when making nests, standing on guard, bringing supplies and then support when babies are in the nest. The families stay together through the winter too.
As I sat their with Nature, I felt myself shift. The pocket of ‘blah’ disappeared. My mind had quieted and my ego stopped its pushing. Within ten minutes, I had realigned.
Over the past few months I’ve been sharing both through posts and through my radio show, Nature Speaks, the ways in which Nature helps us and heals us. To sum it up, Nature’s support comes through a subtle body connection. Its ability to communicate, to heal and to guide us, is all connected to shared vibration and shared energy channels. When we sit in Nature our vibration naturally rises to match the clarity and alignment that is Nature.
In our day-to-day lives it can be easy to forget that Nature is there to support us; it can be even easier to push it aside as we are inundated with ‘have tos’ and ‘to dos.’ But the thing to try and keep in mind, or not too far out of our immediate thoughts, is that Nature is always there, always open, always ready to support us, to heal us and to guide us.
When I got up to leave the rock and jump into my day, Oscar nudged me one last time, saying ‘don’t forget,’ and then he walked away, vanishing as silently as he appeared.
If you find you’ve stepped into your own pocket of ‘blah,’ see if you can find even just five minutes to be in Nature. Sit with it, be in it, be it and let Nature guide you back to your natural state of balance and harmony.